White Picket Fence

This is for me but your reading it

I want a white picket fence

I don't think I really believe in it

But I'm going to keep believing in it cause it's all I have to believe in. It makes it all worth it. 

Someone once told me that there's a guy out there that loves me for me. Unconditionally and true. For all of me. I just haven't met him yet

He loves me for all of me. All  my insane sleep cycles. scattered but precise taste in music. abnormal obession with anti-origization in all things which happen to be organized. That's last sentence actually only makes sense if youve seen my room. My annoyance of fake. love for the outdoors. nervousness tendency of brushing my teeth. Spazy moods. need to create. very dry humor. opinionated beliefs which are frequent, and very unconsitent. habit of forgetting. want to be alone. very dependent  independencies. my anxiety. fault of restlessness. My delusions, like the want I have to drop everything to move to Alaska and become Hindu. drive to perfection in talents. hate of working. my anger. lack of patience. passion for sports. love of adrenaline. misleading intentions. awful ability for directions. imperfect body. Habit of indulgence. Picky eater. Clingyness to artistic souls. Love of soundtracks. Too round of face and too thin eyebrows too big of legs too pale of skin tone. And your telling me. That's there's really someone out there that   

Really loves me for all me 

That's just fricken hard to believe. 

If there really is a soul out there that can match mine

Equal me out 

Then that's just insane. 

White picket fence 

American Dream

2 kids 1 boy 1 girl 

Loving husband 

Middle class

Pourch swing

Not a worry in the world 

Perfection

I hope it's real

Even though I don't believe it is 

It's all I got